This month is a busy month, i will be moving to a new house soon with my dad. So this holidays will be a cleaning house on my list.
good things are i will have my own space which is a smoke free. i kinda choked with smoke even in my sleep cause one of the family member i lived with is kinda heavy smoker...
that's one relieve at least.
Later, there will be an adaptation term where i might be less doing art. the house is faaaar away from work, and i work 11hours a day. i wish i can change that.
the current co-workers are assholes.them on management are kinda sabotaging my bonus worth of USD 120. Damn they are pressing my button. i work so damnly hard for an income. but these ppls who cheat on boss are trying hard to get rid of me in all kind of way. Well, bring it on! i kinda so mad at the moment. We only can earn few hundreds a month, and yet ppls are being jerk to me. i try not to play victim here tho... but i must survive
i love art a lot, but i can't make it my life support. maybe i'm not good enough. I kinda upset about my stickers design which i put lots of effort but not making a decent sales. hahaha i know this is complicated between what i wanna do and what i can do
i am a kind of person who choose what i can do over what i really wish i can do. that's why i'm keeping my hell alike job. i hope it wont damage me any further.
to sum it all, this half year of 2015 was a hard time for me. i hope i don't turn to be a heartless monster like the way ppls always did around me, cause i know i am capable of, and the only thing that keep me from it is 'karma'
for now, all i wanna do is to spend a quality family time with my Dad, since he is the only parent i have now.