my art is the reflection of my life, the way i see, feel, and express things... its been repetitive that i have a great imagination with such lack of ability to make it real... a lot of distractions, and by this 'running away' time i used to find something else to do and forgot my early purposes hahaha....
i cant spent time only to draw, since i have life expenses to cover, i took a job, kinda like it, but so much pressure lately, i starting to try to run away again after 3 years doing the crazy tasks... i have to admit that this job isnt a healthy activity with such messy tasks, i mostly double or multitasking and ignore my soul crying for help... i an feel the urge to stop a bit, feel myself, like meditation, but again... i rush to future (mostly mind). i am someone with plan. sometime spontaneous, not so smart, and have bad luck (lack of good karma)
i lately try to make extra money from the game im keen on, not so bad, but it took most of my spare time now. i kinda loosing myself in this busy life. plus the feeling of loosing my main job, once i decided to dedicate mylife for my parents will (once again, run the family business which gave me so much pressure earlier) i run so far away only to return to the same spot. life is kinda creepy... i think i have unsettled things in past that i have to face, not running away from, only not to hurt anyone's feeling... hmmmmm
and my fingernails are growing long now, which i used to cut to play my guitar. lol im loosing some part of me while im rushing to earn money. but without it i also cant do any hobbies... sometimes i think i need more than 24h a day, where i can do more things i like, instead of going to sleep because of running out of energy everyday. and wake up not sincerely every morning, missing my bed Lol
oki, i gotta get back to work, banking every workdays... parents every weekend and gaming between spare time